यादें

यादें


कभी अच्छी तो कभी बुरी
कभी पूरी तो कभी अधूरी
कभी खट्टी तो कभी मीठी
कभी लगे मिर्ची से भी तीखी

इन यादों में है जैसे जीवन ये सारा
जैसे सभी कश्तियों का कोई अपना किनारा
कभी लगे मनो लाचार सा कोई बेचारा
कभी लगे जैसे कोई पंछी आवारा

रह रह कर आती और बड़ा सताती
कभी ख़ुशी से तो कभी गम से ऑंखें भीगा जाती
चुपके से आकर दिल में उथल पुथल मचाती
कोई पाती अपनी मंज़िल तो कोई अधूरी रह जाती

इन यादों में जैसे है ये जीवन समाया
लगे कड़कती धुप में जैसे ठंडी सी कोई छाया
कभी गुम सुम सी मासूम सी लगती है वो
कभी लगे मानो पुरे जीवन की परिछाया


काश इन यादों को फिर से जी सकते
गलतियों को सुधर कर खुशियों को लिए चलते
गमो को भुला कर दिल खोल कर हसते
ढेरो हसीन पालो से नयी यादों को रचते
काश इन यादों को फिर से जी सकते

Suicide - Solution or Problem?

It feels like now that there is not a single day when I haven't heard or saw or read about any death or any misfortune  in any family or in anyone’s life. Someone is getting shot, some other person is drowning, getting killed in an accident and trust me the worst part is suicide. Every now and then I am reading about suicides. It seems like it has become some kind of trend or a thing to us. Sometimes I feel like we don’t think before we do such thing?

Failure in love, not good enough marks, family problems, extra marital affairs, after getting dumped, not getting any job, not getting selected in some BIG SHOT MBA/MBBS/BE college.

Get over it boss. Think twice thrice and still you are feeling the same u deserve a nice slap on ur face.

Are you nuts that u r choosing this option to solve other problems which itself is a problem. Then how can it solve other problems?

Worst and one of the biggest bul***** reason "Ok there is nothing to do in my life, I am getting bored CHLAO SUICIDE karte hai..!!!!!  

I don’t care if you do or do not think about yourself, think about others who are related to you or dependent on you. Think about them who really wanted to live but did not get the chance to live. Think about them who were in those all spots where they do not deserve to be n got killed/murdered or ran over by some bus or some A********** drunk driver. Think about those family as they are still waiting for them and think that someday some fine day the person who is no more will come back from that main door and will say HIIIIII.......

Think about that Mother who gave birth to that child who is now no more just bcz of some stupid person or may be because of some planned murder. Think about that lady who does not feel like getting ready n dressing up nicely for her hubby. Think about those kids who will not get another chance to love and be loved any more.

Do you really think that this will solve everything? This the final and only solution for all of your problems? This will make everyone else happy who right are not happy with you or disappointed?

Now think about this also as they will not get another chance to SCOLD you, to shout on you, to be mad on you. Why because you the B***** h***l are not there now.. Surprised..???? may I ask why.??? you only chose this right.? you wanted to do it am I correct.? you have only decided that KI HAANN YAHI SAHI HAI correct me if I am wrong which you can't because I  am not...

I am not here to tell you how to solve your problems. The only sole reason behind this post is to not to create more problems in some one Else's life. Because the moment you do such stupid things thousand of problems fall onto your family. And now you are not there to take care of that. WOOOWWWW what a nice thing you did. Such a brave thought and deed right.?

It takes a lot of courage to do such things I understand and it is not easy for you also. There must me many of things going on in your mind. I am very much sure you know all these things which I am saying/writing here.

But think thousands of times are you really sure there is no other way and no other solution for your problem?

Are you really sure you have explored all the areas and have tried every single possible and impossible way to  sort that out? Because I don’t think so.... Trust me there is always a way to get out of any mess, its just depends on the way you look at those things.

Love Life- boss there are plenty of other girls and boys EXPLORE them. For sure you will get one for whom you were waiting for. In some nice words the one which is meant for you and only you.

Family crisis - Work it out. talk it out. Discuss things. Try to share and listen. Share everything if possible. That will build up some other kind of bonding in your relation.

Failure in Exam - So what? Big deal if you are not getting selected in some big shot university or something.? Is it wort your life? will your parents be happy that yaahhh my KID was not able to selected in BLAHH BLAHH institute so he committed suicide and I am happy now.? Do you really thing it will be like this? They will hate themselves that they put you in such a situation trust me. They will always feel that they were the reason behind all of this. Don’t do it to your parents bud. There are so many other institutes and colleges and all where you can get nice education. The only thing which matters is education not the Institute believe me. I have done my BE from MPCT some of you have not even heard about it. So what I don’t care at all I am happy living my life having fun. I have gone through that phase but I m proud enough to say that I did not chosse this and will never do that.

Not getting job - HELLLOOOO..... That is not even a reason. Search again change the criteria of your search, make a good resume, prepare your self for the interview nicely, don’t screw up in the interview, be confident. I can go on and on and on about all these things. Why? because it is really a shitty excuse to do such thing which is going to cost a lot a real lot more then you think and know.

Last but not the least and real shame full reason - there is nothing good in your life and you don’t know what to do with it.. You have no idea and getting bored.... F*** O**. I think you don’t even deserve to live. You don't deserve to have this life as you have decided to shit on it. So sorry  but I mean and will say it all the time. You don’t deserve this.

There is a saying " We realize the value of anything when its gone" - very true. But here you won’t get a chance to realize this as you will not be there. Now who will face this your friends and family, mainly your family? who will have to answer so many questions to POLICE to SOCIETY to OTHERS whom they don't even know. When they will see your TORN body. How nice it will look right.?

Don’t do it boss. Please don't do it. There are plenty of other ways to solve your problem. There are many of other reasons to live More than the reasons which you have to die. There are many of us count on you, like you, love you. There are many of us who are happy to see you happy.  So if you reading it and having any such  thought of  doing this shitty thing please give me a call or write me. I am here to listen to talk to work out things to make sure that you are also one important person in this world. You are valuable to so many of us. Will help you to show you so many other reasons to live rather than choosing some stupid reason to end this life.

Think as many of times you want. Think for your entire life. Think about all those good things which u had, still have and for sure will also have in future only if you live. Think about all those smiles which are related to you. Think about those smiles again which will not be there any more ones you do this.

So please THINK before you BLINK.. And if still not getting answers of all of your questions, then think that those are really not meant to be answered. Few things should always be left unsaid. May be this belongs to that. So forget it and move on. Moving On is not easy so take it as a challenge and prove to others that you can do it. You can live it and live it like a king of your own world.

So here I will end this topic otherwise I will keep on going with some more reasons and some more examples with my lovely all time favorite lines -

"LIFE IS PRECIOUS GIFT SO LIVE IT DON’T LEAVE IT"

Who we are ...???

It’s not what we are it's who we are which makes the difference. Sometimes I think how it makes differences and changes and how can one say that this is what I’m and I’m proud of it. What we are sometimes comes as a legacy from our family, parents and close, but who we are is the form which only we build for our self. The base which can show what we think about others, what we think about the world, how we see it, what efforts we are giving and can give if needed to make some changes towards the world, towards the society and towards ourselves. It shows our way of thinking and handling stuff, dealing with problems.
                                  What we are sometimes comes as heredity that oh that person is his/her son/daughter. It can be our surname, our identity. It can be anything from our looks, our expressions, our gesture and all, but who we are totally comes from inside us. One’s behavior cannot be same as the others. May be I look like my Dad and yes in some ways I behave like him sometimes but there are many of things in which I’m totally different from my Dad. It can be bad or good doesn't matter, the point is one cannot be the Xerox copy of any other individual in this world. We all carry our different and individual personality. So please go ahead and explore the other world. Do not just hold on to the stuff which is coming from what you are. Don’t just think about your name, cast creed. Because if we think little deep then we can see that what we are will always be there if we do good or bad, but who we are will not be the same. It will change not just you but also your outlook and your way of thinking which can create a huge difference. It can change your perception. It is the only thing which we earn on our own and cannot be given or earned by anyone else for us. So please work on who/how we are and that means in good way to help people, to help society, to help your family and at the end if something is left in you then to help yourself. 

Still Unseen....

Yesterday night I saw a very beautiful dream
I saw something different which was kind of unseen
She was standing right there with her wide open arms
My feelings were melting in her beauty and her charm

She whispered something with her Small Soft lips
Now we were so close and had a very intense kiss
I was staring at her leaving everything behind
When some questions started rushing into my mind

Without asking anything she explained everything to me
That she is only my Dream or what else it could be
She was saying something with her sparkling eyes
I could only feel her presence as night goes by

I never really got a chance to ask who SHE is.?
Was it the only chance or will she shower me again with her fizz?
She was driving me crazy with her breeze and her smell
I never saw her face and can’t explain how it felt

But I still think and feel that she will come back again
My these true feelings will not go in vain
She was like a perfect girl which every man can dream about
I was falling for her every-day in which I have no doubt

that feeling was so strong like a beat of my heart
i can not just miss it or things will fall apart
may be she is not real or will always be unseen
but the feeling was different which was part of my dream

Glimpse of Heaven

Glimpse of Heaven

We all strongly feel that there is something called as heaven, but no one knows what is it? How is it? And how can one reach there? We all desire to go to heaven when we die. We perform poojas and all because we believe that this will lead us to the path of heaven and will work out as the pass for the gateway of heaven. We say that our deeds (Karma ) are the only ones which take us to heaven. But I believe whatever heaven is; it is here only on earth, where we live, and right in-front of us. For me there is nothing up there it is all here in me, in my behavior and my thoughts, my actions which I kind of felt few days back from today and so I’m writing this post. There is one small story I would like to share with you guys and here it goes.

Few days back, I had gone to McDonalds with my brother and my sister in law. It was our happy Sunday time. As always, we had gone out to eat. So there we were enjoying every single bite of our Ice-Cream and it was damn good. When we all were heading to our car, I saw a little kid (probably orphan, I’m not sure about it) sitting right outside McDonalds counting money which included some coins and some notes of Rs.5 and Rs.10. He was also watching other kids (wealthy or I should say fortunate enough to enjoy that lovely meal). I saw a little pain in his eyes like he was cursing someone for whatever he is going through and also imagining himself enjoying that meal without even tasting it. I had never seen such an emotion in my life earlier, happiness and sorrow both at the same moment. I was shocked and stunned and stood there without any thought about what I should do. I was just standing there and watching him silently. For those couple of seconds, I stood there without any thought in my mind, just watching him. Just then, a loud honking of some car passing by brought me back to the real world and I realized that the kid was looking at me when I was staring at him without blinking my eyes for a couple of seconds. I don’t know what he felt or thought but he went back to the counting stuff without even giving me a second look. I moved aside to give some space to that car as it was waiting for me to move from that parking space. I started walking to my car again thinking about what just happened? What was that? Was it real what I just saw?

After few steps towards my car I don’t know what happened, but I felt that maybe I can do something which can bring a small smile on that sad face or can make him happy at-least for some time. So, after handing over my ice-cream cone to my sister in law, I went back to the store. I was in a hurry as I thought that the boy should not run away from that place and I was praying to God also that he should be there please hold him for some more time on that particular spot where he was. And I almost kind of shouted one Macswirl please hurry and the soft polite reply came from a lady behind that counter “ Namaste sir welcome to McDonalds may I take your order?” and I realized that shouting or rushing will not change or solve anything. So I just replied back “One Macswirl please” “Anything else sir?” “No Thanks.” I took the Order and ran back to that side way of the store where that boy was sitting and just gave him the Ice- Cream. At first he hesitated but then he took it and gave me back a simple sweet little smile. And that was it. I stood there for few more seconds as I was watching him enjoy his own Ice cream cone with that twinkle in his eyes and that look ( he he he... now I also have one and its mine ;) ) was amazing. Can’t explain what was going on there and how that was, but it was something different for sure.
I was watching him licking that sweet thing and enjoying every single bite of it but very very very slowly like it should last forever and he could eat it for entire day. Licking slowly and checking out other things also, watching cars passing by and people staring at us. That complete moment or I should those couple of Minutes which I spent with him were amazing.

And as always good things don’t last forever so that moment was over and we both came back to the reality where my family was waiting for me and he was in hurry too. While coming back to the car I realized something, something which was different from all the things which I have done till now with some of my friends. This is it. This is heaven where you live a happy life without pain or any issue or stress or I should be more specific that was the “ Glimpse of Heaven” for me . Without any fear of what is going to happen and what will world will think? Where you don’t need to answer any of those questions to justify or defend yourself for what was that? What are you doing and all? I exactly don’t know what was that, but I felt like I got a glimpse of heaven and honestly speaking it was different. I didn’t realize until I reached the car and Dada ( My Brother ) asked me what happened and I said there was this kid sitting outside of the store so I gave him an ice cream and he said “You are a good guy!”... All I can say it was an amazing experience and was totally different. Later on that day I came to know that Joy of giving week was going on and I had done something unintentionally- something which made me feel good and more of a happy person. That really was a glimpse of Heaven for me... I really thank God for letting me face that situation and have that moment. And today as I m writing thing post one punch line from a TV commercial is making sense to me “ KAR KE DEKHIYE ACHAA LAGATA HAI “ .

I will be there

So many times I wanted this to say
Don’t you worry at all I won’t go away
When ever u ll need me just give me call
I ll try every thing and i ll be there

When u ll get Old and Your hair will become gray
When the only thing on tongue will only be just gods pray
When u will close your eyes and will wish to see me
Just give me a call n i ll be there

As u were with me in my sickness and health
As u were there in my poverty and wealth
As u helped me in all mental/physical and financial way
Please just give me a call n i ll be there

I ll be there for u every day and all the time
If it takes from me everything then also it is fine
You just don't worry guys don't feel alone
U have done your duties now its time of my role
Just don’t hesitate and give me a call
Your presence is important which comes above all

Don’t think about any thing be relaxed and feel free
I will take care of every thing its my time to see
You have done all the things whatever u could do
U have made us proud and now its my turn too
If u find something wrong let me know and correct me
Just give me a call bcz there is no I its all about only WE

May be i won’t be near bcz of some work or some reasons
But the truth is that i love u so much more then anyone
U mean everything to me, in all my ways
I just can’t think without u guys, my any single day
If u have any issue please just don’t hesitate
Just give me call guys n really i ll be there

trust me i won't let u down.

This one is dedicated to my MOM DAD from me n Dada..
Mamma Paa we really love u a lot more then any thing n we mean it right daa....

समय

मैं देख रहा हूँ इस कबख्त समय को चलते 
धीरे धीरे इन सरे पलों को बदलते 
बचपन को जवानी और जवानी बुढ़ापे में ढलते
कभी लड़खड़ाते कभी गिरते तो कभी अपने आप संभलते
हवाओं और मौसम को जैसे आपस में लड़ते
मैं देख रहा हूँ इस कबख्त समय को चलते 
धीरे धीरे इन सरे पलों को बदलते 

लोगों को धीरे धीरे ऊँचाइयों पे चढ़ते

जो आसमान पे थे उनको निचे उतरते

इश्क और मोहोब्बत को हवाओं में घुलते

दो जवान दिलों को प्यार भरी गुफ्तगू करते 
मैं देख रहा हूँ इस कबख्त समय को चलते 

धीरे धीरे इन सरे पलों को बदलते


उमंगों और आशाओं को हर रोज जैसे बढ़ते

नफरत की उन गलियों को चाहत की तरफ मुड़ते

उन नन्ही किलकारियों को सफल आवाज बनते

हर परिवार में यूँ रिश्तो और रिश्तेदारों को बढ़ते 
मैं देख रहा हूँ इस कबख्त समय को चलते 

धीरे धीरे इन सरे पलों को बदलते


कहीं प्यार कहीं नफरत तो कहीं घमंड को पलते

कभी एक आशा की किरण या एक ख़ुशी के रूप में आते

कहीं नफरतो को बढ़ते तो कहीं दो दिलों को मिलते 

कभी फूल कभी पत्थर तो कभी अंगारों में सुलगते 
मैं देख रहा हूँ इस कबख्त समय को चलते 

धीरे धीरे इन सरे पलों को बदलते


पर जानता हूँ समय का एक अंदाज है सुहाना

समय तो सिर्फ एक पल जिसने हमेशा है बीत जाना

एक पल में अगर गम हो तुम दूजे में कुशियाँ मनाना

कभी दूसरो को हराना कभी खुद से हार जाना

एक बार जो निकल गया तो इसने लोअट के न आना

पर ये समय ही है दोस्तों जिसको है बीत जाना

ये समय ही है दोस्तों जिसको है बीत जाना

आओ फिर इस समय को हसीन बनायें

नफरत के अंधरे रास्तो पे प्यार के दिए जलाएं

जो २-४ पल है जिंदगी के उन्हें यादगार बनायें

अमन और शांति से हर एक गली को सजाएँ

होसके तो हर रोज एक नयी सुबह को जियें

और जैसे हर रोज कोई नयी शाम बिताएं

आओ फिर इस समय को हसीन बनायें

आओ फिर इस समय को हसीन बनायें .................. And The Journey Begins Here

मौत तू अभी न आ, अभी कई काम बाकि है

मौत तू अभी न आ, अभी कई काम बाकि है
इंसानियत को तो चढाने कई मुकाम बाकि है 
दोस्ती की आड़ में जो हो रही है दुशमनी 
है अब तक की जो दुश्मनी उसके इंतकाम बाकि है 
मौत तू अभी न आ, अभी कई काम बाकि है


जो जुल्मो सितम पहले सहे उसकी कहानी और थी 
और जो जुलम अब हो रहे उसके परिणाम बाकि है 
था सोने का जो खाजान हमारा देश अब वो न रहा 
जो रह गया है अब थोडा सा उसको बचाना बाकि है
मौत तू अभी न आ, अभी कई काम बाकि है


यूँ हिंसा और अहिंसा के इस जाल में हम है फसे
हर शक्स को इस बात का एहसास दिलाना बाकि है 
राजनीति के लिबाज में जो स्वार्थ है इस कदर बसा
उस स्वार्थ की भावना को तह से मिटाना बाकि है 
मौत तू अभी न आ, अभी कई काम बाकि है


दिलों पे रखा है जो नफरत का बड़ा पत्थर सा यूँ 
उसी नफरत के बदले में है भरना प्यार भी अभी बाकि है 
जो रूठ कर के बैठे है न जाने कब से हमसे यूँ 
उन्ही रूठो की मोहोब्त से मानना भी तो बाकि है 
मौत तू अभी न आ, अभी कई काम बाकि है


मोहोब्त है फूलो का बस एक प्यारा सा गुलदस्ता 
इन्ही फूलो से महकाना ये " हिन्दुस्तान " बाकि है 
ढके है जो उदासी से हजारो मायूस से चहरे है 
उन उदासीन से चेहेरो की बची अभी मुस्कान बाकि है 
मौत तू अभी न आ, अभी कई काम बाकि है


जो हो चूका वो होगया अब उसके लिए क्यों रोता है 
जो होना है आगे अभी उसका अंजाम बाकि है 
मौत तू अभी न आ, अभी कई काम बाकि है
इंसानियत को तो चढाने कई मुकाम बाकि है 
ऐ मौत तू अभी न आ, अभी कई काम बाकि है

सपनो में जो देखा था वो हींदोंस्तान कहा है

सपनो में जो देखा था वो हींदोंस्तान कहा है...

जमीन है पुरानी लेकीन आसमान बदल गया है

वो मजहब पुराने लेकीन मकसद नया है

हर इन्सान बीलकुल अब बदल सा गया है

सपनो में जो देखा था वो हींदोंस्तान कहा है....

वो चाँद है पुराना लेकीन रौशनी बदल गयी है

वो सूरज की कीरणों में जैसे तपीश बढ़ गयी है

इबदाद   का जैसे मतलब ही बदल गया है

सपनो में जो देखा था वो हींदोंस्तान कहा है....

कहीं पर हीन्दू तो कहीं मुसलमानों का डेरा

न जाने कोन है पराया और कोन है अपना मेरा

में बताऊ ये कीसको के ये क्या हो रहा है

सपनो में जो देखा था वो हींदोंस्तान कहा है....

हर तरफ है छाई जाती धर्मं की लड़ाई

कीसी की माँ कीसी की बेहेन चाहे कीसी का भी हो भाई

सोचने का नजरीया अब बीलकुल बदल गया है

सपनो में जो देखा था वो हींदोंस्तान कहा है....

स्वतंत्राता के नाम पर गंदी राजनीती के खेले

वो तड़पते हुए इंसान और वो लाशो के मेले

हर कोई बस अब खुद के लीये जी रहा है

सपनो में जो देखा था वो हींदोंस्तान कहा है....

घरो में है ज्यादा पर दील में जगह कम हो गई है

इंसानियत मनो जैसी हमेशा के लीये सोगयी है

चैन तो लोगो का बचपन से छीन गया है

सपनो में जो देखा था वो हींदोंस्तान कहा है....

न जाने कब होगा मेरा सपना साकार

न जाने कब बदलेंगे लोगो के मन के वीचार

न जाने कब दिखेंगे हम को सब भाई भाई

न जाने कब होगी अमानवता की वीदाई

सपनो का हींदोंस्तानन जाने कब दीखाये देगा

हजारो के बलीदान के बाद अब और क्या ये लेगा

कब बंद होगी जात पात की ये लड़ाई

तरसता हूँ के कब होगा सपना साकार मेरा

एक ही आसमान है यारों.... न तेरा न मेरा ..

जय हिंन्द ...

MAA

This poem is totally dedicated to Maa (mother). The way she love, the way she talk, the way she treats us & the way she takes care.. I hope you all will like it .

MAA

wo pahli kilkari k sath zindagi ka muskana

maa k anchal me jaisi sab kuch paa jana

na koi pareshani na kisi baat ka daarrr

anchal ki chaon me jaise apna pura gharr

hamari ek hasi k liye uske nakaam pryatna

choti si hal chal k liye dher sare jatna

su su potty se din bhar usko satana

phir bhi uska jara bhi naraj na hona...

wo ungli pakad kar chalna sikhana

wo gale lagane ka bas dhundhana bahana

chalate chalate koi nayi poem sikhana

or girnee se pahle hi godi me uthana

roj loriyan sunana, or pyar se sulana

gar nind na aye to hamare sath jaagana

raat ki need me uska sparsh wo suhana

sari mamtaa ka sagar jaisi hum pe lutana...

wo thoda sa satana or baad me khud hi mananaa

gar jyada ruth jaye to kisi chezz ka lalach dilana

kisi na kisi tarahh se harr baar mana lena

or phir usi tarahh se dobaraa satana

school ka pahla din or maa ki yaad satana

pahle hi din me dhudhna ghar jane ka bahana

wo tiffin na kha kar apana ghussa dikhana

ghar pahuchte hi mamma kaha hai chillanna...

wo har result se pehle uski tension badh jana

hamare liye haar baar duaa karna

pass hone ki khushi me sab ko mithai khilana

gar no. kum aye to papa ki dant se bachana

hamari khushiyon me apni khushiyan dhundhana

hamari sari baton ko pure dhyaan se sunanaa

hamare har faislee me karna madadd hamari

bas yahi sari baten hai maa pyari tumhari...

wo colg ki bate sari tumko sunana

apni pahli GF se dar dar k milana

wo har baar tumhara ek hi baat samjhana

hamari hifazat k liye haar baar taiyaar rehna

Job search k liye hamara city se bahar jana

gum or khushi ki dono feelings ek sath ana

phir chupke se room me aakar humko samjhana

khud ka dil pakka kar humara honsala badhana...

wo hamari pahli naukri ki khushi humse jayada manana

har jagahh sirf hamare tareiffoo k pul banana

din gujarte jate hai par tumhara bilkul na badalna

aj bhi usi tarah se dill se jor se gale lagana

dusari city me hote hue bhi durii feel na hone dena

khair khabar rakhne k liye har din ph karna

wapas gahr jao to uski ankhoo me aansoo ka aana

aansoo k motiyon ko chupa kar dil khol k muskana...

ajj bhi us maa ke anchal ki jid karta hun

ajj bhi us maa ki mamta k liye marta hun

ajj bhi us hug ke liye har roj tadapta hun

durr hun thoda sa par yaad hamesha karta hun

Love You MAA

P.s. paa i love you too